Micro, Miles, and Mercy

Can I tell you a secret?   I feel like a fraud 99.999999% of the time.   Yep, I spend a lot of time wondering why anyone would give me a PhD.   When I look at myself, a majority of the time I don’t see a great scientist, or a revolutionary thinker, or a promising researcher.   I tend to see someone in a lab coat fumbling her way through the lab just praying she doesn’t burn the place down.  Recently I have been receiving e-mails for job postings…like real big kid jobs.   These positions use words like: conceptualizing, revolutionizing, direct, apply critical thinking, professor, lead scientist, etc., and it sort of makes me want to puke…or shrink back into my safe place.   Can I be that?   What if I can’t?   I have spent 6 years doing what I am doing and I honestly don’t feel like I know anything about it.   What if I am a bad scientist?   What if I end up disappointing everyone? Why is it that human beings can’t see themselves for who they really are?   Why is it so much

Now, I know that I can make the single life look suuuuuuuuuper glamorous *sarcasm*, but don't be deceived, there's plenty of #singlegirlprobs to go around.  From wondering if you love your dog a little too much, to praying no one ever finds out that you... this is a list of my single girl probs. 1)  The fact that when you forget to pay the electric bill...YOU forgot to pay the electric bill.*this goes for all manner of bill paying and adult responsibilities.* 2)  How the movies portray single twenty something girl's lives.  Oh yes, my problem is that I am going on all of these dates with all of these wrong guys...yes, sooooooooooooo many dates! 3)  That moment when you realize that if you were ever actually asked on a date that you would have to meet him outside...or figure out how to do 10 loads of laundry really quickly! 4)  Continuation of #3:  Or the fact that the only thing you know how to talk about is *insert occupation here* and that you love the food a

I have entered into a sweet phase of my life with my friends, the baby phase.   Yes, it fills my heart with such immense joy to say that my friends are becoming mothers.   I am so enjoying watching them step into this new role in their lives, and to be honest, half the time I feel like my heart is TOO full…like it just may burst open at any given moment.   Yesterday a song took me back though, back to a place in time that will always mean the most to me.   It took me back to a little town in Kansas, where my path converged with the paths of a group of very special women (and you know who you are).   Even though my love and appreciation for them grows every day, I will always have a special place in my heart for those young girls running around the streets of Manhattan.   No matter how far life takes us I will forever and always remember them as those girls. This got me thinking a little bit about mothers.   It is strange for me to think of my friends as moms.   I was present f